102. A loss.

I finally have a lost after weeks of desperation.  I focused less on blogging and more on planning.  I'm at 220 for a total loss of 98 pounds.

Yay!

108. Planning.

Planning in progress.  Busy days simple eating. More to come.

110. Enlightenment

Above Emerald Bay, South Lake Tahoe, Ca - May 2014

I Heart the Outdoors

I've had several conversations with trainers telling me my expectation are high for my 09/30 goal is high. I should slice the goal in half. Then I was told 48 pounds would be the healthiest and highest number I should aim for by 09/30/14.

I'm open to the new number. Just like I'm open to the idea of having more outings. I look forward to getting healthy so I can climb mountains, hike through trails and just get out and play.

Here's to making a successful meal and work-out plan.

To Happy Days.

111. Rejoice.

Trying to Show my Pink Strands Encouraged by Susie.

I had fun out on a girl date with my bestie Susie. We talked about it all including my body image. She laughs at me when I think I won't fit through a space. She thinks I'm silly when I think I won't fit her sweater. She had to tell me at least 3 times I'm small. I insist I'm not small. She insists I'm smaller, "or if you don't want to call it that your body is different."

I'm stuck in the I know I'm not skinny mentality. I don't want to get comfortable with my size since I'm just starting to fit a size 14. Maybe that's me being hard on my self or thinking I'm still a size 28. Susie made me stand back and look in -- well, I have changed a lot and I'm just not used to it. -- Our talk really helped. We also came to the conclusion that I was holding on the my old clothes for security. So I'm getting rid of it by the end of the month. If I don't have any buyers, which would have been ideal, then I'm donating to the women's shelter. 

Hanging with Susie was nice. She reminds me to be 

bold, encourages me to do more and believes 

I could do it all. 

To great friends.

112. Temptation.

I allowed temptation to take over. I had the nachos I craved for weeks. I found them to be less pleasurable then I remember. I was over it after a taste.

No guilt. No mind games. It was just nachos that were all right and certainly not worth the calories.  Now all I want is some watermelon and papaya. Ha! Who would a thunk?!?

113. Tired

I did not post while sick. Missed the day due to rest.

114. Update.

This weekend was full of activities and I stayed on target as best as I could. I'm trying to stay focused and the counter on my phone won't allow me to forget the goal.

My caloric intake remains low but it's not completely clean. My activity level was on point but I'm sick with my ongoing issue so I can't work out for a few days. I will hop on the saddle once I feel better. 

For now I remain focused on how I feel when I'm healthy. The feeling I get when I am able to go out and play. I am proud of my accomplishments and I'm pushing for more.

To better days.