Remain Coachable

Me waiting for my driver on 10/09.
First Selfie I have taken in awhile.
I can face me again.

I can feel my rolls of fat in certain places again. I reverted to binge eating patterns.  I identified them. I am working through these patterns. I was diligent about conscious eating since the beginning of photo challenge. I had a relapse last Wednesday after feeling a high level of frustration and depression. 

I was angry at myself for reverting to old habits. I was angry at myself for being in this constant cycle of vertigo. I was angry at my body. I felt a deep level of shame. I did not allow myself to accept the changes I have been experiencing. The limitations I feel are quite daunting for me. I am releasing all of these negative emotions and negative ways of thinking.

Today I woke up and gave myself a pep talk today : Don't be ashamed. You are doing the best you can daily. It may not seem like enough to others and none of that matters. You are doing this for you.

Happy is a state of mind.

I remind myself: Everything happens for a reason. I am well. It will all work out. I remain
focused on all the things I can do to improve matters.
I no longer focus on the things I cannot change. One step at a time. 

I embrace my rolls. I embrace my soul.