Remain Coachable

When coach asked me to send him everything I ingested for the last two days ... shame was the first emotion I felt. I was ashamed about the choices I would soon make. Then I snapped back to reality and told myself there was no reason to be ashamed. I took on the task and remained coachable.

Below are my meals for the last three days. I added Thursday to the mix in order to keep in line with today's post. It is a true testament of the choices I make good/bad.

4/21 Meals

4/21

-Breakfast. Hibiscus, green and tea.-Breakfast sandwich with egg whites, spinach, avocado,  tomato and turkey bacon on wheat bread.


-Lunch. Green juice with Ginger and pineapple.
Peanut butter and jelly (2tbs) on wheat bread. 

-Snack. 1/2 of the fruit bowl - papaya, pineapple, cantaloupe  and watermelon.

-Dinner. 3oz rotisserie chicken breast, mixed green salad no  dressing. 1/4 cp Humus and 1/2 of a wheat pita. 

**Not in picture ** 1/8 cp of talenti gelato.  
-Hydration.10-12 cups of water.

4/22

-Breakfast.Green vanilla jasmine tea.

04/22 Meals

Same sandwich as above (super hungry-skipped the planned oatmeal)

-Snack.Green juice with ginger and almonds

-Lunch.Three pieces of salmon sushi and three pieces of salmon sashimi. I was full and had the planned salad an hour later when I became hungry. 

-Lunch 2.Mixed greens, walnuts, cranberries and goat cheese. 2 tbs. of balsamic vinaigrette dressing

-Dinner. Mixed Green salad with portabello mushroom,  purple onions, and avocado.1/4 cup of cotija cilantro dressing for the entire salad bowl (serves 3). 
Carne asada (didn't weigh... 6oz?) . 1/4 cup of pinto beans. I went nuts with 4 tortillas **not in picture **

**Not in picture**Handful of almonds
-Hydration.10-12 glasses of water 
Also had vanilla Cinnamon tea at some point.

04/23

04/23 Meals

-Breakfast.Berry Tea **not in picture**
Greek yogurt with honey, almonds and a banana

-Snack.oatmeal with Cinnamon, raisins, and almonds

-Lunch 1. Wheat pasta with balsamic vinaigrette sauce and tomatoes and chicken breast.
I was full and had the planned salad an hour later.

-Lunch 2. Spinach salad, spiced walnuts, cranberries and goat cheese. 2 tbs. of balsamic vinaigrette dressing

-Snack. Oprah Cinnamon Chai Tea Latte - tall
banana

-Dinner. **this meal and dessert are not in the picture**Mixed Green salad with lemon and herb vinaigrette. Carne asada - 6oz . 1/4 cup of pinto beans. 4 tortillas. 1/8 cp. of talenti gelato

-Hydration. 6-8 glasses of water

All of my teas have no added sugar. The Chai Latte is the exception.

There that is everything.....clear vail. 

Here's to keeping it real and making better choices!

Remain Coachable

Working Through it

Just as I think I'm not going to make-it or I doubt my abilities I strap on my big girl boots and keep pushing.This was the case when I doubted being ready for tough mudder earlier this week. I thought, "65 days and I feel lost". The coach's words "done" meant so much for he saw beyond my own vision.

I knew I had to clear my mind and think positively about my own abilities. I did not get frustrated about my low performance, (one class instead of two), and just remained on my slow and steady progress mind-set. I was focused on mental-strength.

The Results:

✔I was complimented at work for the progress I've made with my weight loss.
✔I was coined skinny at work.
✔My boobs stick out further than my tummy.
✔An individual shared their weight loss story with me and thanked me for being their source of inspiration.
✔An individual contacted me to find out how he could start his transformation and tips for weight loss success.
✔A friend and member at accelerate studio proclaimed me her "SHERO"!
✔I feel the love and encouragement of great like minded individuals.
✔I found true joy in spinning. A class I once hated and only continued to attend cause "coach says".
✔I have a workout happy hour crew at the studio and for once in a long time feel I have the social environment I missed from my old bar happy hours!!
✔I feel confident in my journey and I release my fears ongoingly.
✔I forgive myself for not being perfect.
✔I fuel my body with foods that nourish it.
✔I am breaking down barriers actively.
✔I feel free and remain open to the grand and beautiful possibilities.

The journey is just ramping up and I feel the earth rumbling with excitement for what is coming. Yay!

Here's to living the dream.

Trusting the process.

I have been on a binge since Wednesday. After each meal or snack I'd say this is the last one. However, I kept at it. Eating what I wanted with no tracking of calories. I also skipped work outs. I have been to lazy and uncommitted for more. Why? Because when I weighed and measured my fat % on the first of the month, I found out there was no change! None. Zilch. Nada. 

At first I kept pumping myself up trying to remind myself of my weight loss triumphs and achievements. I was trying not to over think instead I did just that and I quickly disregarded it all; the additional size I went down, how much thinner my arms look, how much my waist is slimming or the large amount of compliments I get daily. 

I just shut down and for five days I lived in disappointment, discouraged and complete gluttony. While I said each day was the last...it wasn't. I kept at it. I knew I was starting the fit4fall challenge tomorrow. So part of me excused it with that and the other part of me knew I was just cheating. The guilt was fueling my shame which in turn caused me to eat again. The over eating cycle.

Well. I'm not feeling sorry for myself because I'm allowed to be human. I'm done making myself wrong. Instead I'm getting up, dusting off, and pushing forward. Acknowledging  the behavior is the first step to being able to make a change.

There is nothing wrong, i'm not bad and i'm simply accepting the process. I'm moving forward and I'm pushing for the size 16 by 10/12. Declared. It's time for change.