Remain Coachable

Mind. Body. Soul.

I have lived with fear for far too long. Even after my TM experience and declaration. In the back of my mind I thought about "that thing". I thought about the abuse and pain I endured for most of my childhood and adolescence. Even as I blog today I am wary about having to "tippy-toe" around the subject because of the "what will they say?" convo or the "stigma" that may follow.

To be clear, I do not reveal this part of my story to remain stuck in the pain and fear. I share this in order to create a platform for all of those who struggle with some sort of pain in their life. I share so they too can take a stand for a better self because there is nothing more satisfying then rising from darkness.

In the past month my fears about my past got very real in my head. I shut-down and I was becoming ill. My Knees. My Stomach. My. Chest.
All in pain. It was starting to snowball but I noticed and took a stand. I started to read about healing, self-love and self-love. I went through the motions of every day life.  I started to balance my choices.

I was making progress. Then came my bridge; The Hay House World Summit 2015 . They released audio interviews and movies on 5/8 and I started to pay attention. Soon enough my fears were released once more. I noticed how long I was in darkness and how long it took me to get out. I allowed myself to accept and validate my winter. Soon enough it was SPRING and there was a SPRING in my step. Today I find myself singing in the rain.

My Community.

My girls. My boyz. My rocks. They are the people I interact with daily. Those who focus on self-progress and self-awareness. They post about healthy life choices; good meals, exercise and words of encouragement. They are the people I look forward to reading about and encourage me when I lay ill on my couch. They make me rise with a smile no matter how I feel. For them I am grateful.

My coach with his rants and <clear throat> lectures helps too. His last words on Tuesday gave me that extra push too. He said, "I know you do yoga" and all I thought was, "Oh my yoga!" My yoga practice had been dormant for weeks!!

Yoga

On Wednesday I woke up and just like many mornings ago...I started my day with Yoga. It was like meeting an old friend. I'm in love all over again.Three days into my morning yoga routine ... I remember how much I love it. It is the fundamental piece to my well being and weight loss. It fills my heart with self-love and gratitude. It cements my purpose to encourage, motivate and love others. It provides the clarity and intuition I desire. A great example is this very moment. Just as I contemplate "saving" or "publishing" today's post I receive three messages:

(1) The hummingbird comes to me. It reminds me to fly.
(2) The text from my girlfriend informing me she's reached a new weight loss goal. She reminds me of the impact I have on others.
(3) The song "free your mind" comes on ... I let go and allow the rest to follow!!

Here's to standing in the light.

NAMASTE.