Quality

I've been reaching out to friends more. I start to text or call instead of scrolling through IG and FB. It has brought higher quality relationships my way. It inspires me to know I am surrounded by great people.

Go share yourself with those you love this weekend. Make them remember why they are so special to you.

Have a great weekend and be lovely!

Namaste.

Motivational Monday

I was sitting on my back deck contemplating life and my Bugambilias 

You see from the the moment the Bugambilias were planted I started to treat them differently. 

I named them, on the left is Ms. Beauty Queen herself that was to perfect for Ms. Rebel on the Right. 

Back then Ms. Beauty Queen flowed with grace up the wall and her flowers covered the view. 

Ms. Rebel, well she was just doing in her own thing. She fell to the side and her branches were dry.

I babied her and talked to her trying to make her see her own beauty. 

I would say, "yes you're a late bloomer  but don't you worry you will see your beauty at your own time". Meanwhile, Ms. Beauty Queen got nothing or the occasional, "why you gotta be so perfect?"

Anyhoot, with time their appearance changed and now it is clear the roles have switched.

 I feel responsible for not spreading my love equally. 

I treated one with special care and attention; 

while leaving the other completely unattended relying on it's own ability to grow beautifully. 

As I sat contemplating the role switch, and life in general, I was grateful for the lesson. 

For there is great importance in being able to treat all areas of life, all people, and living things 

with the out most respect and love. Yes this includes all areas of your self. Myself.

So this week as you set your goal list be sure to include patience and love for yourself.

As will I.

 Have a great week and remember there is much great love for you here. 

Namaste.

DHARMA

The time I spend checking my various social media accounts will be spent in meditation. There are several reasons like photophobia (light sensitivity) and to gain focus of my purpose. 

My intent has always been to motivate and encourage others to reach the best versions of themselves which is why I will continue to share in this format.

I remain coachable to life's lessons and invite you to create intent around what thrills you. Have a wonderful Friday.

Namaste.

Reset

Where are you today...?

Keep moving...

...just don't fall.

That's what I tell myself when vertigo hits. But there are times when I just can't move. At times I get worried because I don't know how severe a "little" spin may be.

I was on day two of feeling well and a trip to home goods for meal prep containers during lunch became too much. The glancing, moving of head while looking...well it did it. I needed help out of the store and into my friends car.

I was bumbed because I was sure I was going to make it to a training session with coach. I was able to stabalize by the end of the workday BUT I knew a gym session would not be a good idea. I came straight home after work and took a nap. Then I sat on the couch...upset. I told myself just do 30 minutes. Just get up and do something.

I took to walking in my treadmill. It is how I started my journey. Back to basics. Getting off of the treadmill did cause some vertigo. I sat down on the sucker until I gained composure.

Now I sit and rest. Satisfied with myself. Soon I will do more. Today I stay true to myself.

True Tuesday

Vertigo had me on the fence. I never know what to expect or how the day will go. I sat on the couch for a couple weeks each day trying to do a little more. Then there were days I would get upset because I could not follow the scheduled routine.

Last Friday I came up with this flexible 14 day schedule to get back on track in the face of it all.

To my surprise it was similar to the type of schedule Rowdy Ronda Rousey described in her book when she was trying to get back on track. I am no RRR but it gave me this AH-HA feeling. I knew then it was going to work. 

Day 1 was Sunday. I said there would be no ifs, and, or, whats about it. Yesterday was tough and I opted for a stable ride on an indoor bike. The flexible workout schedule is just what I need to keep me going. CHECK BOX HERE!

 Now get up and do something. Peace!

Motivational Monday

"Hazlo con Amor", do it with love

I've always been head strong, fiery and angry.  Sometimes for no real reason just cause I woke up that way. So then my mom would say, "hazlo con amor". I never really allowed the idea to sink in...until today.

Today when I woke up thinking about all the things I have not done for my weight loss. I stopped. I stopped the thought pattern and simply said, do it with love.

The result was a hike I've been meaning to do for years. With a smile. With pride.
I'm not worried about where I am supposed to be or what it is supposed to look like. I'm present to acting out of love for self-love.

What i missed it!

I had a lot on the brain and I was certain yesterdays post would be good. Well when there is a lot on the brain...it can shut down.

Today I focus on activity and good food so there will be much to share...later.

Motivational Monday

There are an inevitable amount of times I will doubt myself. I will think about how I cannot accomplish something. I will allow my negative thoughts to take over even when my gut tells me otherwise. The insecure little voice will sometimes rise and make me think, "I can't do it". I can usually work my way out of it. Then it all works out. Usually by bringing something positive and new to the surface.

For example, this morning I came across this video of Meryl Streep describing how she was denied a role for not being pretty enough.  I imagined what she must have felt like in that moment. Whether she cared or what kind of impact it had early in her career. Can you imagine how much self doubt that could have created? What she had to work through to move forward? She had conviction, confidence and charisma to move forward. She kept in touch with her greater self. She kept going and look at her now. She is Meryl Streep for goodness sake!

My point is to keep going. No matter what. No matter who. Just keep going because you believe you can. Even when there is doubt listen to your higher self and say I can do this. I can keep pushing and I will reach my goals. I just need to keep ... WORKING.

Here's to listening to your greater self.

Motivational Monday.

Insecurity. Fear. Doubt. Are all enablers of bad habits. They limit progress and place shadows over accomplishments. I remind myself over and over again to let go.

A year ago I was taking three types of medication. My endurance, stamina and fitness level has improved significantly. So instead if focusing on where I should be I am grateful for where I am and accept the process.

I hope you honor yourself and do the same.

New year. Same me.

I own who I am and let go of hold backs. I see things for what they are and eliminate the stories I've created to stop me from achieving the goal.

I'm starting the year with a hike and clear vision of what I desire the most. A healthy, self-loving, adventurous and fit me.

Here's to playing big!

Wonderful Wednesday

I found a new favorite!!! YES!

Today's Meal was prepared by my friend Andy. I found the recipe and he was willing to try it. 

OMG...he made my day. It was the best comfort healthy meal I've ever had.

Tonight's meal

Turkey Meatloaf
Boiled New Potatoes
Steamed Green Beans
6 points. Approx. 350 calories. 

Per serving: Serving is 1/8 of the meatloaf, 1 cp of new potatoes and 2 cps of green beans (you can have many more cups of green beans without changing the calorie count) 

Recipes

Turkey Meatloaf :  Please go to the my recipes link provided. 

Boiled new potatoes with garlic, lemon and paprika.

Boil  8 cups of new potatoes for 20 minutes at medium heat. 

Add garlic powder and a little salt. 

Once boiled coat with paprika and lemon juice.

Steamed greens beans cut and cleanse green beans. 

Add water to steamer bring to boil and steam the 

green beans with garlic salt for 8-10 minutes. 

Enjoy!

115. Letting go.

Yard Sale Say

Posting more later but I'm showing a pic now.

**UPDATE POSTED ON 06/09**

The yard sale was set up to sell stuff I was holding on too for way too long. Most of it turned out to be plus sized clothes.

I did not sell as much as I wanted. However, I had various eye opening moments. Seeing all of my clothes laid out from various sizes was shocking. I also let go of some of my favorite pieces and it was okay because I do not need to hold on to clothes I do not plan returning to. Simply said, putting my clothes for sale was letting go of the former me and  releasing my security blanket. 

Here's to new ventures.

Sunday fun day.

Had fun...after my morning work-out. 

I'm wide awake

SURPRISE IT'S KIKI!

I got ready and rushed out of the house for a work related conference this morning. I was walking down the hall when I saw my reflection and couldn't believe that person was me. I was surprised, pleased and in awe. Just as I think I'm not doing enough or I'm not seeing quick results...BAMN! The truth is I'm learning about myself daily and reminding myself about the importance of being patient and not making myself wrong when I have a set-back. But I also can't get comfortable with where I am in the process because I'm still 76 pounds away from goal. Today's visual surprise pushed me to go to the gym when I was too tired. 

AT THE GYM

I did my 12-week upper body training (doubled for last week's miss) and cardio instead of yoga to make - up for last week's miss. At some point I wanted to give up. I was sore, tired, and my body felt like it was going to give-out. Instead I pushed harder and self-talked: "i'm stronger, breathe in energy and breathe out negativity, stopping is not an option etc." --> In the end I felt proud and accomplished because I didn't quit. I'm building endurance.

To waking up from life's slumber.