Motivational Monday

I was sitting on my back deck contemplating life and my Bugambilias 

You see from the the moment the Bugambilias were planted I started to treat them differently. 

I named them, on the left is Ms. Beauty Queen herself that was to perfect for Ms. Rebel on the Right. 

Back then Ms. Beauty Queen flowed with grace up the wall and her flowers covered the view. 

Ms. Rebel, well she was just doing in her own thing. She fell to the side and her branches were dry.

I babied her and talked to her trying to make her see her own beauty. 

I would say, "yes you're a late bloomer  but don't you worry you will see your beauty at your own time". Meanwhile, Ms. Beauty Queen got nothing or the occasional, "why you gotta be so perfect?"

Anyhoot, with time their appearance changed and now it is clear the roles have switched.

 I feel responsible for not spreading my love equally. 

I treated one with special care and attention; 

while leaving the other completely unattended relying on it's own ability to grow beautifully. 

As I sat contemplating the role switch, and life in general, I was grateful for the lesson. 

For there is great importance in being able to treat all areas of life, all people, and living things 

with the out most respect and love. Yes this includes all areas of your self. Myself.

So this week as you set your goal list be sure to include patience and love for yourself.

As will I.

 Have a great week and remember there is much great love for you here. 

Namaste.

Wonderful Wedesday

I needed to disconnect and rest. I planned for my training schedule which I did not follow due to a flu on Monday and Tuesday.

I was making myself wrong but then read the four agreements and all was well.  

Keep your spirits high and your head up higher. Namaste.

Motivational Monday

I am headstrong, stubborn and smart.

Sometimes I don't know when to stop and my stubborn ways get the best of me. Other times I don't give up because I am so stubborn...I just can't. It is probably the reason why my mom always had a hard time with me. She said I was often relentless.  Still am.

You can say being headstrong and stubborn is one in the same. It could be but I view it as my trait to be willing to try... over and over again. I fall. I get up. I have my mind set on something and I will keep going with my eye on the prize.

My intelligence will sometimes get the best of me. Especially when I over think, over analyze and just stop. But it has also saved me by blocking certain memories and surviving different stages of my life. It allows me to follow my own pace and I'm in what I call my perfect place. I  always land on my feet because of some final smart move I made. I am grateful.

So why do I make these statements on a motivational Monday entry? --- well to invite you to do the same. Reflect on who you are and how far you have come. Not to stay stuck in the past but to see how far  you have come. No matter where you are in your life thank yourself for  getting you there. Give yourself some self-love and then create something new just for you.

Here's to being the best you. Namaste.

Motivational Monday.

Insecurity. Fear. Doubt. Are all enablers of bad habits. They limit progress and place shadows over accomplishments. I remind myself over and over again to let go.

A year ago I was taking three types of medication. My endurance, stamina and fitness level has improved significantly. So instead if focusing on where I should be I am grateful for where I am and accept the process.

I hope you honor yourself and do the same.

The hide out.

Mentality

My mental state for the most part has been positive. The structure I had for the month of May fell out. I kept most of my routines because my goal was to make it to the white river rafting adventure with as much strength as possible. My insecurities kicked in a couple of days before rafting but I did it. It felt AWESOME just like I did back in my college days. INVINCIBLE. 

White River Rafting. American River near Sacramento, Ca. May 16, 2016

Meal-Plans

I stopped tracking my food and winged it. The consequence is a 3 pound weight gain. So be it. I'm coming clean because I'm ramping up for the final home stretch. I have 122 days before my final goal date of 09/30/14. I know careful meal planning and point counting will be the key to my success. Point tracking is key and I will do it going forward.

Work-outs

I've been pretty consistent with my work-outs. Everything except the 12-week challenge. I hated admitting it to my readers but mostly to myself. I saw it as a failing moment. I made myself wrong for not doing things "right". Then I hid because it is a typical way I handle things when I put a lot of pressure on myself. I finally decided to focus on my fitness highlights. I tried new things like boxing, beach yoga, new hiking trails and new training techniques. oh and of course I rafted; an activity I used to love doing annually and was unable to do due to my weight for almost 14 years. 

No Excuses

Having a confessional blogging moment is the perfect time to recommit. I'm hooked on this new lifestyle and I'm not letting go until I reach goal. Having a detour doesn't mean I'm stopping. It just means I'm human. I still want to provide a "how to" to other people who are struggling with their weight or simply want to be healthy. This makes me move forward because I'm truly living an inspired life and I want others to do the same. 

To living to inspire myself and others.

Lent: The time of year...

...when I gain the most weight.

This is the time of year when I GAIN, GAIN, GAIN. The time of year when I say, "oh my mom only makes this during lent so I must have it." 

NOT THIS YEAR

This year I have a 12-week challenge. This year I am committed more than ever. This year I BELIEVE I can meet GOAL.

THIS YEAR

I am going to engage in only the positive behaviors of my lent traditions. I will volunteer and share myself with others. Do good for others.

THIS YEAR

I am also going to do something I have not done for years during lent. I am giving up something: I am giving up the story that I am meant to be fat. I am giving up my fear associated with being anything other than who I truly am: a happy and loving person full of life.

THIS YEAR

San Miguel de Allende, Mexico. Oct. 2013

I am going to meet goal. I am clear my day to day "sacrifices" i.e. behavioral modifications, the hard work-outs, the amount of times I say, "NO", when I'm offered something unhealthy; are all for a greater good.

THIS YEAR

I am owning my greatness and sharing myself with others. I am going to mentor at risk-teens and live a life of purpose.

To reflecting, sacrificing and doing good for others. 

Day 10. Awakening

Obstacles and excuses will always exist. Life is a continuum of events that can easily lead to failure or success. Today I chose success. I followed the plan and when I had an opportunity to do otherwise I said no.

-no to the last minute invitation to the bar. 

-no to the temptation of just lounging on my mothers front porch. 

-no to going to watch a movie with a friend. 

-most importantly: no to my old ways of stopping when it gets to be too much, too hard or too different.

I have waken from my slumber and the love I have for my self is stronger than ever. For I can truly admire and love the woman I've become. I will continue to mature and grow into this beautiful person. The feeling is overwhelmingly exciting and joyous.