Remain Coachable

I have been an open book. Displaying good and bad choices for a week. Last Friday I mentioned how I was practicing what I preach and being mindful about what I eat. In some ways I am coaching myself by making myself accountable and then getting up quickly with positive self-talk.

Weight Loss

I started the Diet Bet last Thursday by Sunday I was down 2.5 pounds. This was after a day of unplanned meals on Saturday. I did not prep snacks, or breakfast knowing I was going to do a 5k. When I went out for breakfast I ate 1/2 of a machaca plate telling myself it was not "that bad" and the trend continued with dinner.

Then Sunday came around...I got on the scale, "a loss?" --- Disneyland was a bust. I started my morning with good choices but by mid-day I was starving and eating those, oh not so good things; mickey mouse ice cream bar, a lil bit of popcorn, a lil bit of churro, a lil bit of turkey leg, a lil bit of cake. Then I said, "STOP!" -  I said no more lil tastes and I made sure to add a salad and green beans to the meal I shared with Jose <clear throat> FRIED CHICKEN thigh!

By Monday morning I was up to where I started. BAMN!

Determination

I made a plan for Monday. I started to observe this is a yes, this is a no. When the girls went for a Starbucks run I joined them on the walk but ordered nothing. When I knew I had a busy day...I planned my snacks ahead of time. When they offered chocolate, I said, NO GRACIAS!

Yesterday's meals were off and reviewing it last night I thought, tomorrow I will have more fruit and salad. I will make good choices.

Commitment

I am committed to breaking the "restrictive-eating" trend  and practicing "free-eating" this weekend. I am also adding a mindset switch by creating my own definition for each term:

Restrictive-Eating : Foods that restrict me from being a healthy me. Foods that impair my weight loss and stop my weight loss progress. Foods that restrict my movement. These foods include french fries, cake, onion rings, ice-cream etc.

Free-Eating : Foods that nourish my body and provide free living. They allow me to be free of medication, free of ailments and allow me to move freely. They provide freedom. These foods include vegetables, fruits...power foods.

The Exception

I will allow one meal/event where I will eat what there is without guilt or worry. This week it is my bosses party on Saturday. I will not over indulge but simply eat until I am comfortable (half-full). Drink until I am satisfied.

Self-Love

I invite you to practice some self-love this weekend. Do something nice for yourself and create beauty no matter what you may be facing. Much love to you.

Namaste.

Remain coachable

I've shared plenty during the last couple of weeks.  I've been sharing more about the journey. Opening up more about the past. There has been an overall shift for me in acceptance.

I may be criticized. I may be viewed differently --- and all of that is okay with me because I have gained a new level of acceptance for myself. I've been paying attention to my own write-ups and practicing what I preach. I may very well inspire others with my candid and open approach. I openly display weight loss is non-linear. It is a process that will take time for some while others may speed by. It requires determination and will. 

When the day does not work out. If I make a bad choice. I get up and try again. I've been practicing self-reflection and identifying what holds me back and what other emotional baggage is weighing me down. There is different relationship with shame.

It has all led me to this moment where I just own who I am. This self-reflection mode was perfect for what it was but now it's time to get dirty! --- Let's loose some weight y'all!  I got a bet to win!

Keep pushing. Keep going...and remain coachable.

I'm getting closer.

I'm 8 pounds away from my mid-point. I'm excited, motivated and focused. There are moments when my fears associated to weight come up BUT I am clear that I'm not stopping. 

I'm pushing harder than ever because this time I can visualize it. It looks great. 

Day 22. Results and Rest.

Yes, I am noticing results. The loose clothing and ongoing compliments are not enough. I want more, and by more I mean numbers. Below are my stats:

Current Weight: 259.7
Weight on 7/16: 263
Weight on 6/26: 269.2

Current Fat Percentage: 40.3%
Fat Percentage on 07/01: 46%

I have not worked out since Saturday. I am currently sick with a cold/flu so I pushed myself on Saturday after skipping two work-outs during the week. Well, I should have continued to rest instead because now I'm worse. I decided to rest on Sunday and I'm playing today by ear. I shall soon find out.

The upside: I'm feeling great about my results. I'm going to continue to push myself but I'm allowing my body to go through the motions of a cold/flu. To better health.

**SIGH**

Here it is. What I look like...well, partially. The irony of me blogging is--I have a REAL hard time with sharing and I mean intimate sharing. I don't want to be a punk complete odd ball and I figure it's okay to add some pics. As I get comfortable, I will open up more and at some point share my face. <giggle, giggle>

Heaviest 318 lbs.

Current weight: 367.1

My Stats

Heaviest: 318 lbs. 

Current Weight: 266.4 lbs.

Goal: 200 lbs.

Measurements

Chest: 52

Waist: 55.5

Hips: 54

Well I'm still not sure if I see the dif but I went from a size 28 to a size 22 AND from a 4X to 2X. So I'm shrinking or so it seems.