A week before the Tough Mudder event I injured
my knee. It was looking dim and coach was advising
me to sit back. The risk was too high. Yet, for me there was a higher risk. I
was combating with OBESITY. I knew I had to make a change and there was some
real fear; fear of complacency. I knew that on 03/28 I had to JUMP IN! NO
OPTIONS. I would walk it if I had to...but I would do it.
Los Game Changers is a team of 6 people who combined have
lost 494 lbs. They were doing this with me. I had a support group. On event
day, my knees were in pain by mile 2. I was walking. I was in it for the
long haul and I knew that was the smartest way. I officially was the weakest
link on the team and after the 3rd obstacle all but one teammate left me. Or so
I thought, I had a whole new team…it was the TM Team. It was the community.
Each and every one of them…this still blows me away. So much, I add a disclaimer
for possible rambling!
Post TM, I am able to identify my recent behaviors and
the difficulty I have with acknowledgement. I realize I stop myself because I
do not want people to view me, my shape or my person. I knew this in some ways
before…but Tough Mudder cemented something in me. I AM NOT MY FAT. There is me and there is Fat. We are not one.
I can not use fat to hide me because I am not invisible. No amount of weight
I gain will ever hide me. The only thing fat does is shorten my life span.
TM also reminded me I matter. There were so many people there ready to help. Cheering me on and then telling me I could do it. I borrowed their belief when I thought I could not go anymore. People saw me for me and did not shy away. They helped me. -- I CLIMBED WALLS!! All 228 pounds of me!! I could not do the bars but I JUMPED IN! I cramped up in CRY BABY got out…then jumped right back in and did it. I DID THE BEST I COULD. I PUSHED my LIMITS and COMPLETED TM. I own my power.
TM also reminded me I matter. There were so many people there ready to help. Cheering me on and then telling me I could do it. I borrowed their belief when I thought I could not go anymore. People saw me for me and did not shy away. They helped me. -- I CLIMBED WALLS!! All 228 pounds of me!! I could not do the bars but I JUMPED IN! I cramped up in CRY BABY got out…then jumped right back in and did it. I DID THE BEST I COULD. I PUSHED my LIMITS and COMPLETED TM. I own my power.
This fuels me to lose the next 80. I will continue
to share my story with those in my community. I
accept my bright star and want to bring all that light to others.
Here's to you meeting your weight and fitness goals!
