Motivational Monday

When my mom talks about her pregnancy with me...I was the rebellious one. The one who wouldn't stop kicking...that would shake all around when she sat down. Relentlessly until she got up and moved around again. She always tells the story of my birth, the one who flew out like a football ready to go!

Yet I stop myself with questions and over thinking of the most basic concepts. So this coming month, the last month of the year of manifestation, I am playing full out with intention. I'm thinking less and doing more.

December Goals Include:

1) Hot Water with Lemon and Ginger Daily

2) Journal entry Daily

3) Clean Eating Daily (exceptions are 12/24 & 12/25 for family recipe tamales)

4) Exercise, any type of work out, for at least 30 minutes daily

5) No weight-in until 12/31

6) Organize Guest Room and Office

7) Follow-up on Doctor Appt's for tests

8) Give each day 100% in every area; work and home life

Get on up and join me with your December Goals. Get up and get started. 

ROAR!

THE ELEPHANT

I've been overweight my entire life. I've held on to this fat as my form of protection and as my shield against the world. It has been a part of me for as long as I can recall.

It too has been a source of pain and illness. Pain because my appearance sometimes made me an outkast ... it was the source of teasing and name calling. Even by my own father. He called me,  elefante. It was painful and mean. I often told him to stop but he took it lightly until this past Sunday.

After a deep heart to heart conversation he acknowledged his regrets and wrong doings. He apologized for any wrong doing. Specifically name calling. I shared with him how much it meant to me. I told him how for years I tried reframing and applied the positive significance to "elefante". But on bad days when my self-esteem was low...all I could hear was my negative dad.

His response : You are wise beyond your years. You have taught me and continue to teach me so much. I am proud of who you are and how much you accomplish. I am sorry if I ever hurt you with my ignorance and my actions.

I responded with : I am the elephant because of what I practice not because I am fat. I can own that now. Thanks for your acknowledgement.

He smiled and agreed.

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Be the light.  Shine bright.  Be grand.

Remain Coachable

The hardest days require the most attention. They require alignment to yourself and to your being. At least that is what I tell myself. I did not want to meal prep for the day. I did not want to eat the same type of salad. I was getting ready to walk out the door and just wing it.
Then I thought about :

• The hard work I've put in the last two weeks.
• The way I've been feeling after a good meal. 
• The way I'm feeling today and how it may contribute to bad choices. 

So I put on my jeans that fit after two weeks ... and prepped a salad for lunch.

Spinach Mix Salad

3 cups of spinach
2 T of Arugula
1/2 of a red pepper
1 egg
2/3 cups of purple potatoes
3T of garbanzo beans
1/3 cup of yellow cherry tomatoes
1 T of sun dried tomatoes
2T of mozarella cheese
1T of cranberries
2T of walnuts

I included cheese because I knew I wanted something creamy in the mix. Also because yesterday three different people told me the same thing: Don't be so hard on yourself.

So I remain coachable by staying on track and practicing balance in every day decisions.

Have a great Friday.

Yay Gym Time

I made it to the gym today. It is the first time in about two weeks. All of my workouts have been short 30 minutes since my last gym outing.

I spun out during my session last time and this is the first time I had stability from vertigo for two consecutive days.

My gym session was an hour with resistance training and weight training. There is minimal switching and movement to make sure I don't get vertigo during the session.

Set 1 - 2o each 3xs
Leg curls
Overhead press
Front lat raises
Side lat raises

Set 2 - 20 each 3 xs
Back kicks w/ resistance bands
Curls

The rest of my sets we're different exercises put together by my coach. The entire sessions was an hour and he cut it once he saw my eyes starting to "switch up". Its a sign of me pushing to hard and vertigo may soon come on.

Overall a great session.

Sunday Funday

Meal prep is fun for me because I like cooking. This weeks recipes were a bit different for me. It also required a lot more of things that are out of my comfort zone. I don't like to sliced eggs to sit. I don't like dressing to make salads soggy. So I had to use more containers and I will have to do a little extra steps each night before bed.

Each lunch pack has:

1 bed of lettuce
Handful of cooked green beans
Handful of cooked little potatoes
Handful of cherry tomatoes
1 boiled egg
1/2 of a roasted pepper stuffed with tuna salad
Tuna salad is made with parsley, sun dried tomatoes, Greek yogurt and pepper

Lunch also includes:
Balsamic dressing
Raspberries on the side

I'm supposed to be eating egg sandwiches this week but I made several cold oatmeal  jars because the hubby and I are early risers. Making eggs early in the morning may not happen so I want to be sure I'm ready if I need to run out the house.

Here's to an excellent week!!!

Keep moving...

...just don't fall.

That's what I tell myself when vertigo hits. But there are times when I just can't move. At times I get worried because I don't know how severe a "little" spin may be.

I was on day two of feeling well and a trip to home goods for meal prep containers during lunch became too much. The glancing, moving of head while looking...well it did it. I needed help out of the store and into my friends car.

I was bumbed because I was sure I was going to make it to a training session with coach. I was able to stabalize by the end of the workday BUT I knew a gym session would not be a good idea. I came straight home after work and took a nap. Then I sat on the couch...upset. I told myself just do 30 minutes. Just get up and do something.

I took to walking in my treadmill. It is how I started my journey. Back to basics. Getting off of the treadmill did cause some vertigo. I sat down on the sucker until I gained composure.

Now I sit and rest. Satisfied with myself. Soon I will do more. Today I stay true to myself.

Wonderful Wednesday

I have been following all if my fit girl guide recipes and I'm very pleased with the results. I find myself satisfied after every meal. My new favorite has to be the roasted veggie bowls with grilled chicken.

Bowl include:

1/3 cup of brown rice
4oz of grilled chicken
1 cup of a variety of roasted vegetables
1 cup of steamed Kale

Make your own and enjoy.

Motivation Monday

Vertigo has been rough for close to a week now. The lack of stability has reached a new peak of frustration after feeling better for a couple of weeks. However I'm determined to make it work with balance.

I am also willing to make the biggest change with my meals. I have been following clean eating off and on for the last month but I know I need more structure to limit my comfort meals.

Day by day. Meal by meal. I will achieve the goal.

Here's to happy Mondays.