Whenever I start a new challenge, routine or group activity I get discouraged when I don't complete it the way I was "supposed" to. I get upset and then I eat the foods that are only going to make it worse.
This time it was different. I acknowledge my pattern. I know that during the 8 week intensive I gave each workout my best but ate clean 40% of the time. I know that will not give me the results I desire.
In fact I often self-disclose when people ask about my weight loss. I will say, I don't always eat clean and that's why I'm no longer loosing weight. I can acknowledge I have been in this "waiting room" for oh, 6-9 months. You could say its the gestation period for a new me.
Well slap me on the Fanny 'cause I'm ready. I accept it is not a linear process. I accept new and old people in my life. I am okay with being uncomfortable. I am okay with sharing all of me.
I invite you to start this new era with me. Whatever you haven't done or did wrong let it go. Then just start now. If you find you are not ready...try again. Better yet check what is missing for you internally and accept the process. Most of all accept you. Your faults, your beauty... all of you. Then forgive yourself and love yourself to health.
Step by step... you will get there.
Namaste.
