The people who surround me and I have the same mindset about health and fitness. They often motivate me.
FOOD
Food is my largest obstacle. It has been a way to soothe pain and mask sadness. It allows me to escape to a different place with a bite. Or so I thought.
SATURDAY
I had my cheat meal for lunch. It was more of cheat items; sweet potato fries and chocolate gelato. I was content and was sure I was going to be able to manage the rest of the weekend.SUNDAY
We went to the Santa Anita race track and sat in the lounge that offered free buffet. I was making all the right choices; carrot and celery sticks, no alcohol, salad but then came the wings. I had 6 total and my stomach was in pain.
I thought that was enough but oh no it was hot so I had a cherry icee and later a chocolate shake. This is where it all shifted for me. 2 sips into my shake. I realized I did not want it. Better yet I did not like it. It was no longer providing that joyful feeling I associated with chocolate shakes. Instead I was feeling the uncomfortable feeling of over doing it.
Aftermath
My largest motivator in life is my health. Eating certain things occasionally is okay. Going beyond the occasional taste/bite is just ludacris when I know it's going to impact me negatively in the long run.
The best part is I have complete freedom over what I did and did not fall into the pattern of negative self-talk. Instead I chose to stop because of the heightened level of self-love.
Here is to a beautiful Monday full of love and self-care. Make good choices.
