Bye 2015. Hello 2016.

I woke up early on 01/01/15 eager to conquer 2015. I started the year with the Hollywood Sign Hike. A Hike which ended with an agreement to register for the Tough Mudder Challenge with Los Game Changers. It also led to regular hikes, 5K;s and other races for training.

By June, I had 8 long distance hikes, 4 5k's, and one Tough Mudder under my belt. My inspiration wheel was rolling high and no amount of weight gain was keeping me down. I had experienced vertigo with more frequency but I was not allowing it to stop me. I was still "functional".

The community was also inspiring me to continue. I responded to regular questions, assisted people as best as I could and created three groups for people to continue with their fitness goals. There was the Conditioning Series and the Yoga 6-week workshop series; sessions were hosted at different locations with fitness experts. The hiking trips were free to all who were interested.

By July my vertigo had taken a different turn. My light dimmed and there was inconsistency with healthy eating and exercise. I was in a slumber for several months. By October I was ready to start to work on ways to make this functional. I was able to drive again and I was gaining confidence it day to day tasks.

I rise.

I stand tall as I face my 2016 Goals.

-Build Strength and flexibility
-Take it Day by Day
-Eat Healthy. Without Guilt.
-Practice Positive Self-Talk
-Practice Love and Kindness
-Cultivate New and Old Relationships
-Create a Peaceful Environment

Measurable Results
-Follow Continuous Yoga Practice
-I can do the splits!
-Climb the Pole
-Complete 2-Tough Mudders
-Complete 1 - 1/2 marathon
-Complete 1- marathon
-Complete 1 - spartan sprint

Renew
-Vacation in Cancun
-Vegas Trip
-Grand Canyon Trip
-Camping Trip
-NYC Trip
-Vacation in Caribbean

$ave. Be Aware. Be Present.

Enjoy.

Motivational Monday

Planning is good but if a plan falls through  or planning overwhelms you then improvise as best you can. Be cautious  when improvising. You need to be real honest with yourself when it comes to portion control, especially when it is something you like and your estimating.

For example I planned all of my meals for the week and a last minute meeting had me eating at Pacos! Yep. So I improvised as best as I could and resisted temptation. Those tortilla chips are my down fall I could have a whole basket in one sitting and their beans are num num so once I get started I can't stop. Who am I kidding? This applies to the carne asada, and fresh hand made tortillas too.

I had 8 tortilla chips (huge for me), 1/2 of my carne asada plate meal. I subbed the rice for the cactus salad. I had one tortilla. Water as my drink and when he asked if I wanted flan I said NO. 

Skipping the tortilla chips and tortillas all together would have been ideal. My victory was that I said 8 and I stuck to 8. I practiced mindful eating and ate slowly to focus on half of the meal.

If you are just getting started with weight loss half of what you normally eat is a good starting point. Start subbing in veggies as you start getting hungry and explore different salads. Be careful with the dressings they can put you in the danger zone.

Stay motivated and try your best to make good choices.

Remain Coachable

I often struggle with how much I share. Is it too much? Is it for the right reasons? 

It is my main objective to share from an authentic place where there is less concern about looking good and pleasing everyone. I share my story because I hope it will help someone who may relate to my story.

Yet there are concerns about oversharing and there are concerns about critics. Those are the moments I focus on the concept EGO VS SOUL. 

My SOUL is here for others. I have always known that about myself. I LOVE doing things for people. I like to see people smile and laugh. I like to help people heal.

 I like to see others reach their highest potential. 

I hope to continue to share as best as I can to help others and to remain coachable to lifes lessons.

This Weeks Progress

• I started all of my mornings with AM Yoga
• I completed a round of 30 minute circuit training daily. 
• I completed my journal entry while sipping my lemon water and ginger every AM. 

I find this morning routine works well for me because I complete three of my daily goals before I leave for work. This allows me to be present with others. 

I know not everyone is an early bird but see what little games you can create for yourself to get motivated and going. Have an internal conversation to see what your SOUL desires. 

Have a Wonderful Friday and Keep strong this weekend. 

Keep Moving

I took 5,000 steps and earned the Boat Shoe badge! #Fitbit

This is new for me and I hope tracking my steps will help me. I'm 1,000 away from the daily recommended of 10,000 a day. I'm moving around so I can hit it! 

Motivational Monday

When my mom talks about her pregnancy with me...I was the rebellious one. The one who wouldn't stop kicking...that would shake all around when she sat down. Relentlessly until she got up and moved around again. She always tells the story of my birth, the one who flew out like a football ready to go!

Yet I stop myself with questions and over thinking of the most basic concepts. So this coming month, the last month of the year of manifestation, I am playing full out with intention. I'm thinking less and doing more.

December Goals Include:

1) Hot Water with Lemon and Ginger Daily

2) Journal entry Daily

3) Clean Eating Daily (exceptions are 12/24 & 12/25 for family recipe tamales)

4) Exercise, any type of work out, for at least 30 minutes daily

5) No weight-in until 12/31

6) Organize Guest Room and Office

7) Follow-up on Doctor Appt's for tests

8) Give each day 100% in every area; work and home life

Get on up and join me with your December Goals. Get up and get started. 

ROAR!

THE ELEPHANT

I've been overweight my entire life. I've held on to this fat as my form of protection and as my shield against the world. It has been a part of me for as long as I can recall.

It too has been a source of pain and illness. Pain because my appearance sometimes made me an outkast ... it was the source of teasing and name calling. Even by my own father. He called me,  elefante. It was painful and mean. I often told him to stop but he took it lightly until this past Sunday.

After a deep heart to heart conversation he acknowledged his regrets and wrong doings. He apologized for any wrong doing. Specifically name calling. I shared with him how much it meant to me. I told him how for years I tried reframing and applied the positive significance to "elefante". But on bad days when my self-esteem was low...all I could hear was my negative dad.

His response : You are wise beyond your years. You have taught me and continue to teach me so much. I am proud of who you are and how much you accomplish. I am sorry if I ever hurt you with my ignorance and my actions.

I responded with : I am the elephant because of what I practice not because I am fat. I can own that now. Thanks for your acknowledgement.

He smiled and agreed.

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Be the light.  Shine bright.  Be grand.

Remain Coachable

The hardest days require the most attention. They require alignment to yourself and to your being. At least that is what I tell myself. I did not want to meal prep for the day. I did not want to eat the same type of salad. I was getting ready to walk out the door and just wing it.
Then I thought about :

• The hard work I've put in the last two weeks.
• The way I've been feeling after a good meal. 
• The way I'm feeling today and how it may contribute to bad choices. 

So I put on my jeans that fit after two weeks ... and prepped a salad for lunch.

Spinach Mix Salad

3 cups of spinach
2 T of Arugula
1/2 of a red pepper
1 egg
2/3 cups of purple potatoes
3T of garbanzo beans
1/3 cup of yellow cherry tomatoes
1 T of sun dried tomatoes
2T of mozarella cheese
1T of cranberries
2T of walnuts

I included cheese because I knew I wanted something creamy in the mix. Also because yesterday three different people told me the same thing: Don't be so hard on yourself.

So I remain coachable by staying on track and practicing balance in every day decisions.

Have a great Friday.

Yay Gym Time

I made it to the gym today. It is the first time in about two weeks. All of my workouts have been short 30 minutes since my last gym outing.

I spun out during my session last time and this is the first time I had stability from vertigo for two consecutive days.

My gym session was an hour with resistance training and weight training. There is minimal switching and movement to make sure I don't get vertigo during the session.

Set 1 - 2o each 3xs
Leg curls
Overhead press
Front lat raises
Side lat raises

Set 2 - 20 each 3 xs
Back kicks w/ resistance bands
Curls

The rest of my sets we're different exercises put together by my coach. The entire sessions was an hour and he cut it once he saw my eyes starting to "switch up". Its a sign of me pushing to hard and vertigo may soon come on.

Overall a great session.

Sunday Funday

Meal prep is fun for me because I like cooking. This weeks recipes were a bit different for me. It also required a lot more of things that are out of my comfort zone. I don't like to sliced eggs to sit. I don't like dressing to make salads soggy. So I had to use more containers and I will have to do a little extra steps each night before bed.

Each lunch pack has:

1 bed of lettuce
Handful of cooked green beans
Handful of cooked little potatoes
Handful of cherry tomatoes
1 boiled egg
1/2 of a roasted pepper stuffed with tuna salad
Tuna salad is made with parsley, sun dried tomatoes, Greek yogurt and pepper

Lunch also includes:
Balsamic dressing
Raspberries on the side

I'm supposed to be eating egg sandwiches this week but I made several cold oatmeal  jars because the hubby and I are early risers. Making eggs early in the morning may not happen so I want to be sure I'm ready if I need to run out the house.

Here's to an excellent week!!!

Keep moving...

...just don't fall.

That's what I tell myself when vertigo hits. But there are times when I just can't move. At times I get worried because I don't know how severe a "little" spin may be.

I was on day two of feeling well and a trip to home goods for meal prep containers during lunch became too much. The glancing, moving of head while looking...well it did it. I needed help out of the store and into my friends car.

I was bumbed because I was sure I was going to make it to a training session with coach. I was able to stabalize by the end of the workday BUT I knew a gym session would not be a good idea. I came straight home after work and took a nap. Then I sat on the couch...upset. I told myself just do 30 minutes. Just get up and do something.

I took to walking in my treadmill. It is how I started my journey. Back to basics. Getting off of the treadmill did cause some vertigo. I sat down on the sucker until I gained composure.

Now I sit and rest. Satisfied with myself. Soon I will do more. Today I stay true to myself.

Wonderful Wednesday

I have been following all if my fit girl guide recipes and I'm very pleased with the results. I find myself satisfied after every meal. My new favorite has to be the roasted veggie bowls with grilled chicken.

Bowl include:

1/3 cup of brown rice
4oz of grilled chicken
1 cup of a variety of roasted vegetables
1 cup of steamed Kale

Make your own and enjoy.

Motivation Monday

Vertigo has been rough for close to a week now. The lack of stability has reached a new peak of frustration after feeling better for a couple of weeks. However I'm determined to make it work with balance.

I am also willing to make the biggest change with my meals. I have been following clean eating off and on for the last month but I know I need more structure to limit my comfort meals.

Day by day. Meal by meal. I will achieve the goal.

Here's to happy Mondays.

Bottom line

...is I am making a change and overcoming whatever this is. My way every day. What exactly is my way? Reading. Studying. Practicum. Trial and error. fall. UP again.
Repeat. I usually give it me best and it never appears like enough to me.

I descredit myself easily. I expect more. From everything. I run so high and then I fall real low. This is where I am now. Only this time it is different. It is always different. Though I experience the same patterns: Weight gain, ear infections, vertigo, pcos, endo., ...and - look at that no diabetes or high blood pressure on my list. But wait the doc said I am a diabetic. A diabetic controlled with diet and exercise --> N : BUT MY NUMBERS ARE NORMAL. LIKE FOR NORMAL PEOPLE.
DR: ONCE A DIABETIC ALWAYS A DIABETIC. THAT IS WHAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU AS A DR. N: well I don't hear you!  I'm not taking on the label. I am not owning that. But I will keep eating healthy and exercising. SO I SHALL.

Vertigo is still ongoing and my stability is improving. Or so I tell myself. I take this day by day with optimism. I get over joyed with progress and then seem to relapse. Conventional medicine leads me from one Dr to another. Eastern medicine seems to be helping the most. I am still not completely comfortable with sharing the ins and outs of how I feel daily. I am hesitant much like I am about moving. I like to fill my head with positive thoughts so I often don't share how I truly feel until I can't take it anymore. I'm trying not to struggle while struggling all the way. I am persistent. 

I am open to positive changes in my journey towards a healthy me.

Remain Coachable

Me waiting for my driver on 10/09.
First Selfie I have taken in awhile.
I can face me again.

I can feel my rolls of fat in certain places again. I reverted to binge eating patterns.  I identified them. I am working through these patterns. I was diligent about conscious eating since the beginning of photo challenge. I had a relapse last Wednesday after feeling a high level of frustration and depression. 

I was angry at myself for reverting to old habits. I was angry at myself for being in this constant cycle of vertigo. I was angry at my body. I felt a deep level of shame. I did not allow myself to accept the changes I have been experiencing. The limitations I feel are quite daunting for me. I am releasing all of these negative emotions and negative ways of thinking.

Today I woke up and gave myself a pep talk today : Don't be ashamed. You are doing the best you can daily. It may not seem like enough to others and none of that matters. You are doing this for you.

Happy is a state of mind.

I remind myself: Everything happens for a reason. I am well. It will all work out. I remain
focused on all the things I can do to improve matters.
I no longer focus on the things I cannot change. One step at a time. 

I embrace my rolls. I embrace my soul. 

Reset

Meals. I just realized I only had one meal today. Ooooops.

4oz carne asada, nopales, beans, and 2 corn tortillas. Guacamole. Tortilla chips. Salsa. Flan.

One big meal. I was busy in the morning with meetings.  Then I went to lunch and went to see the acupuncturist. This is not the norm for me. It was that type of day.

Keep going!

Meal Monday

Breakfast:

Oatmeal, chia Seeds, almonds, dried cherries and 1/4 packet of splenda.

Lunch:

Kale, raisins,avocado, dried garbanzo with a vinaigrette.

Dinner:
Bk chicken sandwich, fries and Dr pepper.

Almost made the day! It was a gross meal but after attempting to make dinner and getting dizzy halfway through. I stopped and was okay with whatever landed.

I start again with my next meal. I remind myself those foods do not nurture or satisfy me. I deserve and want better.

Remaining Coachable

Today was a tough day.  This week was a tough week. This month was a tough month. The last season was a tough season. It is like my vertigo... circle after big circle filled with sensations of spinning. And even so...it is all good because even though my vertigo continues to be at on all time high. Life is good.

I've gone to 4 Dr. Visits in the last month. Today's visit was a lab results review. I was expecting them to tell me I needed diabetes meds, blood pressure meds, cholesterol... the works!
Instead...I'm told they are better than before.

Great! So the dizzys are just going to have a different cause....the fear of illness coming back diminished. 

Now I sit patiently... for resolution.  I'm getting through this one way or another.
I remain coachable to life's lessons.

Renew

I created the #kikiworksphotochallenge in order to get back on track. I invisioned people posting pics that would help motivate and inspire. I stated it was a movement of solidarity to get me back on track. I viewed it as my way of digging me out of an old pattern I saw brewing.

People joined...some held on and by day 13 there was only me. ME. The source of my journey. The source of my growth. The old me would be upset because they left me hanging. The new me understands everyone is doing there best in life. The new me also finds it perfect.

Why? It was the 13th day of the #kikiworksphotochallenge my lucky number; a guide of sorts that it all happens a certain way for a reason. To shed light on the obvious. It is up to me and only me to make the change. To take ownership of my journey. Which alighned with the plans and convos I had yesterday.

Yesterday Eden from befreeology.com came over for an in home meal consultation. She did a pantry check, I passed, and we talked frig talk. We got to the nitty gritty and I openly discussed my bad and good eating habits. We set up a grocery list and I stocked my new frig with nothing but good foods.

The 14 day workout plan I created 2 weeks ago, was of course, a bit much for me. I gave my workout weeks the best I could. I fell short of my weekly goals. So I also created a more realistic goal for the next two weeks with Eden yesterday.
-->3 days on the stationary bike for at least 5 miles and 2 sets of resistance bands circuits.
--> 4 sessions of yoga (@ least 20 min each)
-->1 callenetics session (i added this today)

I will stick to the 14 day model for now.

I'm heading out to a party today. Pushing myself out the door because it is important I stay connected. My attitude about food is different and I will be practicing concious eating again.

I thank you for reading my journey. I wish you much joy in all you do. Have a wonderful Sunday beautiful.

Changes

I am having a photo challenge on IG. Its been a lot of fun.  It makes me smile for several obvious reasons. I also love to see everyone's takes and journey. Without judgement and with pure joy.

If you want to join follow me on IG @kikiworks_2werkit - follow the details below.

True Tuesday

Vertigo had me on the fence. I never know what to expect or how the day will go. I sat on the couch for a couple weeks each day trying to do a little more. Then there were days I would get upset because I could not follow the scheduled routine.

Last Friday I came up with this flexible 14 day schedule to get back on track in the face of it all.

To my surprise it was similar to the type of schedule Rowdy Ronda Rousey described in her book when she was trying to get back on track. I am no RRR but it gave me this AH-HA feeling. I knew then it was going to work. 

Day 1 was Sunday. I said there would be no ifs, and, or, whats about it. Yesterday was tough and I opted for a stable ride on an indoor bike. The flexible workout schedule is just what I need to keep me going. CHECK BOX HERE!

 Now get up and do something. Peace!

Motivational Monday

Never give up. Keep on going.

I am giving myself the best gift I can for my biddy.

I am practicing all of those things I write about. No matter how I feel with vertigo, my knee or external factors. I am going to remain focused.

Because this is about more than a look...it is about my health.

It is a lifestyle.

current weight:254.6

lowest weight: 218.0

heaviest weight: 318

goal weight: 145

I reserve the right to change the goal weight at any time depending on the look. I have not been lower than 168 at a size 10. This was during my senior year of high school and freshman year of college. Then I started this weight gain thing but there is nothing more to say about that now.

This is after all about getting healthy. In this present moment.

Wonderdul Wednesday.

Going with the flow. Resting for what is coming.

Doing the best I can daily.

Getting into it.

Getting into it is the name of the game.

I'll share as I go.

Motivational Monday

"Hazlo con Amor", do it with love

I've always been head strong, fiery and angry.  Sometimes for no real reason just cause I woke up that way. So then my mom would say, "hazlo con amor". I never really allowed the idea to sink in...until today.

Today when I woke up thinking about all the things I have not done for my weight loss. I stopped. I stopped the thought pattern and simply said, do it with love.

The result was a hike I've been meaning to do for years. With a smile. With pride.
I'm not worried about where I am supposed to be or what it is supposed to look like. I'm present to acting out of love for self-love.

Not lost...just relaxing...

I've been super busy.  Living inspired and in the moment. I will not have a featured person in August. I will share once I return from vacation.

Monthly Feature Inspiration Cycle

July 2015

Cecilia.
My Pusher.

Cecilia holds a special place in my heart for various reasons. She is hardworking, highly motivated and I relate to her differently.

She is a constant reminder of the dream, of going for what you want and having the courage to go for it no matter what. There are no barriers; only those you place for yourself.

I met Cecilia at Accelerate about a year ago. She would greet me with a smile and her little known nod. It took me a few sessions to realize she did not know English. Yet she was always there working her butt off. When signals and signs weren't enough she would ask for help. We also looked out for each other and corrected form when needed.

It was rare for her to miss. As far as I knew she was always there. No matter the time. No matter the class. I was usually right there with her.

I soon learnef her story and how she too had lost 80+ pounds. She  worked hard to get where she was and she keeps working. She always pushes to do more and I pushed along with her.

I no longer workout at accelerate and she is one of those persons I miss a great deal. I will always admire her will and determination to reach and sustain her goals. She is often in my thoughts and she will always remain a part of my special inspiration cycle.

Amiga gracias por siempre luchar por lo que es importante;  la familia,  la amistad, la salud, y el ejercicio.  Te extraño y espero verte pronto. Y como siempre con mucho animo! Xoxo

What i missed it!

I had a lot on the brain and I was certain yesterdays post would be good. Well when there is a lot on the brain...it can shut down.

Today I focus on activity and good food so there will be much to share...later.

Training Tuesday

Knee

I went to the doctor to view my MRI results. I am in need of physical therapy to strengthen my knees but he expects complete recovery on my right knee. My left knee will get stronger with time but it will always be inflamed with use. The doc. also indicated I can return to my normal activity but to keep in mind I will be in pain, always. It will just be a matter of how much I can tolerate. 

Exercise

So here we go. Back to my normal routine and ready to rumble. 

Tues: circuit training & yoga

Wed: indoor cycling & circuit training

Thur: hiking, yoga & circuit training

Fri: hiking

Sat: circuit training

Sun: circuit training

Mon: circuit training & hiking

Mindset

Yesterday I went off the rails. I usually just want to escape when I do not like what I hear. Yes, it is not bad considering. I just needed a moment to be with me and figure out what is next. 

Move forward

I woke up with a sprint in my step and I'm ready to move.

Motivation Monday

The people who surround me and I have the same mindset about health and fitness. They often motivate me.

FOOD

Food is my largest obstacle. It has been a way to soothe pain and mask sadness. It allows me to escape to a different place with a bite. Or so I thought.

SATURDAY

I had my cheat meal for lunch. It was more of cheat items; sweet potato fries and chocolate gelato. I was content and was sure I was going to be able to manage the rest of the weekend.

SUNDAY

We went to the Santa Anita race track and sat in the lounge that offered free buffet.  I was making all the right choices;  carrot and celery sticks,  no alcohol,  salad but then came the wings. I had 6 total and my stomach was in pain.

I thought that was enough but oh no it was hot so I had a cherry icee and later a chocolate shake. This is where it all shifted for me. 2 sips into my shake. I realized I did not want it. Better yet I did not like it. It was no longer providing that joyful feeling I associated with chocolate shakes. Instead I was feeling the uncomfortable feeling of over doing it.

Aftermath

My largest motivator in life is my health. Eating certain things occasionally is okay. Going beyond the occasional taste/bite is just ludacris when I know it's going to impact me negatively in the long run.

The best part is I have complete freedom over what I did and did  not fall into the pattern of negative self-talk. Instead I chose to stop because of the heightened level of self-love.

Here is to a beautiful Monday full of love and self-care. Make good choices.

SUNDAY WORKDAY

The 5k conditioning series had their 12 week completion today. 

The July series is open for new and existing participants. 

Come and join us if you want to get the ball rolling. 

Below is a H.I.I.T. workout you can follow at home! 

Now get going...oh and yes have fun while you 

WORK It!

Sweet Saturday

Exercise

I started my morning with a lazy step. I pushed myself to workout and completed #theworkout in great spirits. Like always, once I am done with the sucker I'm happy. I worked on my arms, legs, and abs. The coach was focused and so were we.

Weight Watchers

I went to my first weight watchers meeting in months. I was hesitant because the gain I claimed and owned on social media wasn't on record with weight watchers. Yes, it is recorded in pics, on the diet bet, in social media but something about weight watchers makes it, oh so "official".

Mindset

My immediate stories and "sadness" kicked in but the topic for the meeting was on point. It was about Vision. Then I thought about all the people who encourage me through this journey. The details I share with readers and my ultimate mission. There is no time for a pity party here. Just keep going I say.

Breakfast

After the meeting I made sure to keep my mind positive and not give in to cravings of hash browns, ham steaks and pancakes. I was already going to work so I figured I'll get my veggie omelet with avocado and the beans for the local cafe. It always hits the spot. I also ordered some mangos for this sweet sweet Saturday.

Vision

Keep it clear and sunny because life is beautiful.

Namaste.

Remain coachable

YAY!

I'm starting week 3 of diet bet and I'm 51% there! I have 14 days to loose 4.8 lbs. Keeping track of my meals has helped a great deal. I will be honest in saying there have been occasions when I take the pic, start eating and then...add a second serving, whether it is a scoop, a spoon or a taste...I am going to start taking pics. Not to be rigid but to truly reflect everything that is going into my body. 

Activity

I only complete 5 workouts this week. This is pretty slow for me and I find myself dragging during the workouts. I find myself going through the motions with less UMPH. I am still doing the best I can and logging them as I go. 

Meals

This is where I am most focused now. I practice mindful eating and have follow restrictive-eating a few times. I just make sure I get back on the horse as quickly as possible. Sometimes even before the meal is out. I usually share all of my meals on facebook and instagram but I am posting them all here so you can see what helped me loose 2.6 lbs this week.

Have a great Friday and remember...it is not about how long it takes. It is about enjoying the ride and being healthy.

True Thursday

There will be meals where you make a bad choice. Don't let it discourage you. Simply pick up where you left off.

Yesterdays bad choice. Chips and salsa at the Mexican Restaurant. I did well half-way through the meal and then I cracked (or should I say crunch? ). Then I had beans and cheese but stopped there and avoided the flan and cheesecake. 2 out of 4. Hooray!

I spent my night and morning going through old albums. It used to be painful to see some of those pictures. But it also brought back several memories, including not shying away from photos as much as I thought I did. I have many more pictures then I originally thought. I never looked at them afterwards and hid the albums. All this time I thought they were at my mothers...NOPE they were in my house!

In some ways it helped to see the pics. I thought,  girl look at where you have been and now you know where you want to be. It is a journey and today is a new day so get up and go.

Here's a pic a found of Elaine and I. You can see how far I have come. Make good choices.

Wonderful Wednesday

Another Medical Gown that FIT!!!
No doubles here!!!

I've been going along with what people offer. I've been going along with invites and attending when possible. I open myself up to positive people and manage my reactions around negative ones.

It has led me to a great space of happy. It has opened me up to things like free clothes, new relationships and better old ones.

MEALS
I'm practicing mindful eating and I'm seeing results. My mind is set on living free of medicine. I placed another bet on Diet Bet for the transformation round.  You too can place a bet and join me by clicking on this  Diet Bet link. I find it is keeping me motivated. There is nothing like making some CHA-CHING while I loose weight.

EXERCISE
I've slowed down but still exercise once a day 5-6 days a week. There have been no double work-outs since my last visit to the doc. I am cautious of my knee and allowing the process to take its course. Today I'm getting my MRI so I will soon know how to proceed. 

All is well in this wonderful Wednesday. 

Recipe Tuesday

Having a variety of meals and recipes helps me keep up with "free-eating". I know it is important for me and helps me eliminate boredom eating. When I do not switch it up and fall into familiar or frequent foods I start to stray.

There are other emotional components,  like yesterday, when I reached for bread sticks and an ice cream sandwich.  --- I caught myself falling into a binge and stopped before it got worse. I instead started to stretch and meditate about what I was feeling. Being mindful is key. I  don't want to gain weight. I have worked hard for this 3.5 lb loss I've had in 12 days.

So back to the recipe: 

GREEN BEANS Cool & Hot Salad

4 cups of green beans (cooked but still crunchy (about 6-7 minutes. Then cooled in ice water)
1/2 purple cabbage (shredded)
1 cup of sliced mushrooms
3 green onions (thinly sliced)
1 roasted red pepper (thinly sliced)
1 Serrano pepper (thinly sliced)
Lemon juice from one lemon (to taste)
2 tbs of lemon zest

Mix all of the ingredients in a bowl and add pepper to taste. Voila!

I used the left over salad the next day and zapped it a few seconds. It was a good warm side veggie dish and tasted different.  Remember you can always add or remove stuff in order to switch it up.

Items you can add the next time or switch out with some of the current veggies for a different taste. If you do this keep the red cabbage, green bean, and lemon base. 

Garbanzo beans
Pine nuts
Bell peppers

Walnuts
Pearl onions
Green apple

We got this!

Motivational Monday

Keep going.

Sunday funday!

Happy fathers day to all the pops. Ill post more some other time.

Here is a HIIT workout to follow for now.

Sweet Saturday

Started with a beach workout this morning then drove to Chatsworth to pick-up some clothes. An old schoolmate offered a bunch of clothes and I said, Yes!

It was nice to reconnect and I went with  the unexpected including showering at her place and changing in front of someone who is not my husband. It was a huge breakthrough and she didn't even know it. It was all perfect and her style was a complete match to mine! Same type of cuts and prints I would choose.

I'm thankful for this process and the kind people around me. April you rock girl!! Kudos to you for your weight loss too!!!

Okay gotta run! Keep it fresh and sweet y'all!

Remain Coachable

I have been an open book. Displaying good and bad choices for a week. Last Friday I mentioned how I was practicing what I preach and being mindful about what I eat. In some ways I am coaching myself by making myself accountable and then getting up quickly with positive self-talk.

Weight Loss

I started the Diet Bet last Thursday by Sunday I was down 2.5 pounds. This was after a day of unplanned meals on Saturday. I did not prep snacks, or breakfast knowing I was going to do a 5k. When I went out for breakfast I ate 1/2 of a machaca plate telling myself it was not "that bad" and the trend continued with dinner.

Then Sunday came around...I got on the scale, "a loss?" --- Disneyland was a bust. I started my morning with good choices but by mid-day I was starving and eating those, oh not so good things; mickey mouse ice cream bar, a lil bit of popcorn, a lil bit of churro, a lil bit of turkey leg, a lil bit of cake. Then I said, "STOP!" -  I said no more lil tastes and I made sure to add a salad and green beans to the meal I shared with Jose <clear throat> FRIED CHICKEN thigh!

By Monday morning I was up to where I started. BAMN!

Determination

I made a plan for Monday. I started to observe this is a yes, this is a no. When the girls went for a Starbucks run I joined them on the walk but ordered nothing. When I knew I had a busy day...I planned my snacks ahead of time. When they offered chocolate, I said, NO GRACIAS!

Yesterday's meals were off and reviewing it last night I thought, tomorrow I will have more fruit and salad. I will make good choices.

Commitment

I am committed to breaking the "restrictive-eating" trend  and practicing "free-eating" this weekend. I am also adding a mindset switch by creating my own definition for each term:

Restrictive-Eating : Foods that restrict me from being a healthy me. Foods that impair my weight loss and stop my weight loss progress. Foods that restrict my movement. These foods include french fries, cake, onion rings, ice-cream etc.

Free-Eating : Foods that nourish my body and provide free living. They allow me to be free of medication, free of ailments and allow me to move freely. They provide freedom. These foods include vegetables, fruits...power foods.

The Exception

I will allow one meal/event where I will eat what there is without guilt or worry. This week it is my bosses party on Saturday. I will not over indulge but simply eat until I am comfortable (half-full). Drink until I am satisfied.

Self-Love

I invite you to practice some self-love this weekend. Do something nice for yourself and create beauty no matter what you may be facing. Much love to you.

Namaste.

True Thursday

People often ask me, "What made you want to do it?" 

There is no simple answer, or is there? It was the feeling of I'm to young to die. I'm to young feel this way. The true cruel reality of diabetes and high blood pressure. I had to make a change.

A 100 lb. lost was a big change for me and part of it was daunting. Not recognizing myself.  Receiving unwanted attention. Seeing myself for who I am.

The cementing turning point.

After dealing with my feelings. After providing myself with the space "to be" it came down to   this.My aunt is ill. She is 57 and requires dialysis because of her diabetes. She requires a double bypass surgery. She is the third to youngest of my seven aunts. All of which have diabetes.
       

Cruel Reality.
If I do not continue with my weight loss goals. I will fall back. I have to make a change. When things got real about health my mind was set. It all became second nature, again.

My freedom is more important than my fear. I accept change.It is a process. It is work.Work I am willing to do.
          I read positive affirmations.
          I meditate.
          I practice self-love.
          All things that lead to a better me.

I practice the power of choice.

         This cookie or my life. Choose.
         This slice of cake or my life. Choose.
                   
The statements keep me focused on self-love. It empowers me to choose vs. feel obligated.
It is not an exaggeration, it is the truth. Seeing relatives live with limitations and dependency on medication makes it real.

My Mission.

To be a pioneer and show the younger generations in my family we do not have to fall into this cycle.
To inspire the older generations and see they do not have to live with diabetes. They too can make a change.
To inspire people who think they cannot do it.
             Get up and Go.
                           
                    And if you fall, get up and Go                                                  

                                             AGAIN!

#sisepuede

       

WONDERFUL WEDNESDAY

Training has been difficult for me to get to these days. My body does not feel the same but yesterday I showed up with my "I'm a lover and a fighter" t -shirt ready to play.  I was off my game but kept pushing.

Acknowledgement of the tee from other gym mates always gets me going too.  Like I need to prove I can fight hard! So I did.

Meals were on point!

Breakfast: Greek yogurt, 1 hard boiled egg, and one slice of wheat toast.
Snack:  banana and almonds.
Lunch: steak salad. Red cabbage,  broccoli, zucchini, green onions, radishes, cilantro,carrots and shredded carne asada.
Snack: 1/2 cup of mixed fruit salad. Strawberries, pineapple, and cantelope.
Dinner: Turkey soft tacos with pinto beans and green salad. Turkey meat was cooked with lots if veggies to up vegetable intake. I used whole wheat tortillas for the soft tacos.

I am also meditating two times a day to get my mind on the game. I have avoided sweets for two days. I don't miss it. I am at peace.

Have a great day!

Training Tuesday

Meals we're better yesterday.  I'm focused on making good choices. I know that is the only way I will loose weight.

Activity was nonexistent yesterday.  I went to get my knee checked and I have a couple more visits to go before diagnosis. Doc said to go light before then. So the workout schedule I created for June with double work outs is out the door. I will do one workout per day and post regular updates. 

I encourage you to create a routine too. Here is a HIIT workout you could do from home.

Motivational Monday

Keep going.  

I cannot emphasize the importance of shaking it off and moving forward. This is key and what keeps me going. I cannot focus on what I have not done.  Instead I focus on the positive so I want to keep going in the face of it all.

While at Disneyland yesterday I was happy and the weight loss impact was on my mind. It was one of those,  oh yeah days!

My Top 6 

A-has!

1. I was able to fit through the little doorways and windows in toon town. 

2. I was able to walk through the Tarzan House without being out of breath. 

3. I fit comfortably in rides without hesitation of being able to get up or sit down. 

4. I did not have to turn sideways and squeeze through the spin wheel at every ride. This was HUGE for me! Every ride had a reminder and it made me smile when I would fit with space on the sides!!! LoL

5. The moment when everyone was thirsty and we were in line:  I jumped over  a wooden partition to get out and ran came back my party was just getting to the switch point. Jose asks , that's how you got out too?!?! With complete surprise of my abilities. 

6. I completed circuit training the morning of AND then went to Disneyland. No problem.

As you embark on your journey show yourself some love and acknowledge your accomplishments. Little things make a big dif!

Here's to a happy Monday!

Sunday Funday

Well it's a wrap...oh wait the day is just starting!!! I've got a  busy day at Disneyland. I've also got a day of bad choices behind me.

Today will be a meal/food challenge and I'm up for it.

1. I can resist foods that do not benefit my body. 

 
2. Fun does not have to be associated with food. 

3. Being healthy is a priority.

So I start my day by working out with the coach and releasing guilt over yesterday.

Here we go!!! 

Double day post

I had a great time at the 5k. There we're moments when I jogged and played with my ability to keep going.

There we're other moments when I was just happy to feel like, I can do this.

I am so grateful for what life has to offer. Blessed.

Sweet Saturday

Diet Bet

Yesterday was day 1 of the diet bet. I resisted cravings and did "okay" with my meals. Oatmeal, spinach salad w/tuna, Greek yogurt and almonds as a snack and grilled turkey, ham and cheese sandwich and salad for dinner. That's where the "okay" part came in.

I avoided the chocolate,  my chai tea latte fix and the krispy kreme doughnuts on the counter.

I focused on how I can do this. I can resist foods that do not benefit my body.

Activity

Yoga as always was perfect. Laisha blossoms when leading yoga. I am truly grateful for being able to host this in my home.

Today I'm doing the color run...couple style because by the time some of Los Game Changers wanted to sign up it was sold out. Here's to good times with my man!

Remain coachable

I've shared plenty during the last couple of weeks.  I've been sharing more about the journey. Opening up more about the past. There has been an overall shift for me in acceptance.

I may be criticized. I may be viewed differently --- and all of that is okay with me because I have gained a new level of acceptance for myself. I've been paying attention to my own write-ups and practicing what I preach. I may very well inspire others with my candid and open approach. I openly display weight loss is non-linear. It is a process that will take time for some while others may speed by. It requires determination and will. 

When the day does not work out. If I make a bad choice. I get up and try again. I've been practicing self-reflection and identifying what holds me back and what other emotional baggage is weighing me down. There is different relationship with shame.

It has all led me to this moment where I just own who I am. This self-reflection mode was perfect for what it was but now it's time to get dirty! --- Let's loose some weight y'all!  I got a bet to win!

Keep pushing. Keep going...and remain coachable.

True Thursday

The process is as hard or easy as we make it. Yes there are outside forces and occurrences we cannot avoid. But in the end it is what we will do in light of those trials that will make all the dif.

FACTS.
I have not worked out since Saturday.
I feel bloated and like a rolly Polly.
I start to feel down.
I talk myself into feeling good.
I tell myself this shall pass.

Today's Action
I will do at least 20 minutes of activity today.
I will eat oatmeal for breakfast.
I will eat a spinach salad for lunch.

What is your mission today? Did you fall of the horse? Well saddle up and figure out 3 positive things you will do for yourself today! Heck just choose one if three sounds like to many. Have the courage to take the steps even though you don't know where it will lead you.

Trust yourself and stay magical.

Wonderful Wedesday

I needed to disconnect and rest. I planned for my training schedule which I did not follow due to a flu on Monday and Tuesday.

I was making myself wrong but then read the four agreements and all was well.  

Keep your spirits high and your head up higher. Namaste.

Training Schedule Tuesday

Here it is ... The June Workout Schedule.

I am concerned about a few things like my knee and the new classes I will be attending. I figure I will not know until I try so I'm going for it. I am also going to finally go get an MRI. There are a few large motivators so I figure the time is right.

1. I'm getting blood work done in a couple months.
2. The hubby and I are going to the Caribbean for our anniversary in August.
3. I'm doing a half-marathon in October - 18 weeks!
4. I'm doing the tough mudder in November - 21 weeks!
5. I love me!

So come on and circle some days to see what you will be doing to up your game! Check out the Exercises tab for some easy starting pointers and variations in activity. Go play!

Motivational Monday

Whenever I start a new challenge,  routine or group activity I get discouraged when I don't complete it the way I was "supposed" to. I get upset and then I eat the foods that are only going to make it worse.

This time it was different. I acknowledge my pattern. I know that during the 8 week intensive I gave each workout my best but ate clean 40% of the time. I know that will not give me the results I desire.

In fact I often self-disclose when people ask about my weight loss. I will say, I don't always eat clean and that's why I'm no longer loosing weight. I can acknowledge I have been in this "waiting room" for oh, 6-9 months. You could say its the gestation period for a new me.

Well slap me on the Fanny 'cause I'm ready. I accept it is not a linear process. I accept new and old people in my life. I am okay with being uncomfortable. I am okay with sharing all of me.

I invite you to start this new era with me. Whatever you haven't done or did wrong let it go. Then just start now. If you find you are not ready...try again. Better yet check what is missing for you internally and accept the process. Most of all accept you. Your faults, your beauty... all of you. Then forgive yourself and love yourself to health.  

Step by step... you will get there. 

Namaste.

Sunday Snooze Day

Today was lady #2 which means I was down and out. It was a different pace from most of my week but an opportunity to recharge. It also allows me to reflect about all of the great things that are happening.

1. I saw an old friend during the week who motivated to stay focused.
2. I met new contacts who provided new insights in my industry.
3. I spoke to an old colleague who provided a new prospective about my long-terms goals.
4. I completed #theworkout series and while I did not meet any of my original goals I reached a new level of acceptance for myself.
5. I joined a new gym.
6. I bumped into an old colleague who thanked me for sharing myself through my blog.

Workouts

I completed 60% of the planned workouts. Which means I completed AM & PM workouts through Wednesday. By Thursday I was beat and made it to one hour workout daily through Saturday.

I have yet to create this weeks structure but plan to incorporate at least two gym visits by the end of the week. I will not post a commitment today since I am waiting on a friend to plan our workouts.

Meals

Meals were good through Thursday ... then it flopped. Sugar cravings got real and I caved in by Friday. I will continue to post more through the week.

Here's to keeping it going.

Sweet Saturday

I've had a busy and productive Saturday. I have much to share. Let's just say I'm feeling all of the benefits from yesterdays yoga session.

 

Feeling blessed. Namaste.

 

Remain Coachable

Once we take on the attitude of we have learned it all, or "we know it already", we cease improvement. Listening to everything as if it were "new" allows us to expand our vision. This is key because once we boast about how much we know the arrogance impedes our development.

This has been key for me this week. I have been in my field for many years. I, after listening to many lectures,  realize how much I know. But I went into each session with a specific listening, "this is all new to me." It allowed me to stay alert and pick up on a few key elements. I have learned key ways to improve upon what I am doing. 

I am applying this concept to my weight loss journey. I cannot continue to do the same thing or act like, "oh yea, I've done this already." What helped me loose the first 80 may not help now. Simply because I need to learn new ways of eating, exercise to improve on the overall methods of weight loss. I remain coachable.

HERE'S TO KEEPING AN OPEN MIND AND LISTENING TO THE NEW.

True Thursday

I want to be true to someone I met for lunch yesterday. We discussed all of the different things I'm up to and I shared my blog with him. It is a great way for him to keep up with me since he is not on social media. He also made a good point...I don't have a lot of my creations on my blog. So here we go.

I create and manage 4 different series/events to offer people with new ways to become active.

1. I have a yoga workshop which runs for 6 weeks at a time. The group consists of 8 people and the cost is $72. for 6 - 1.5 hour sessions. We are currently in week 2 of the workshop. I will post information about the next workshop in good time.

2. The 5k conditioning series is a 12 week program set-up in 3 week sets  with a weekly break for the monthly hiking trip. The 3 week sets also allows people who are starting to workout with short term goal. People do not have to participate in 5k's to be in the series. A new set is starting this Sunday.  There are still 3 spots open on the second team.

3. The hiking trips are not a part of a series but I create the events as a compliment to training. It is also a good opportunity for people to get a view the different hiking trails in so.Cal. It is highly recommended for anyone participating on the TM to come out and hike.

4. The last series I have created and will begin next month. It is the Tough Mudder (TM) series. This is a series was created specifically for those participating in the TM on 11/01 in Temecula. Completion of the 5k beginner series is highly recommended since participation in the TM series requires a fitness test.

I will continue to post regular updates about the various programs, series and events for those interested.

Have a great day and make a small change today.

Wonderful Wednesday

This post is also out of the norm since  I can only write some of Elaine's weight loss tips from memory. These are the tips I recall about healthy eating, meal planning and activity.

Her words that are embedded in my memory:

1. Always pack a lunch. I make salads on Sundays and seal vac them so they rain fresh all week.

2. It is okay to eat out for lunch once a week. You can keep the calories low but if you go nuts, cause we all do sometimes, eat a light dinner.

3. Start slow but start somewhere. You think I like doing stairs?

4. Always go exercise when someone invites you. You may not want to but if you go every time someone invites you, well you have someone there with you.

5. Just do it.

Workout Tryout

Training mode to me usually includes trying a new workout weekly to determine where I am fitness wise. The challenge can sometimes encourage or discourage me.

I did the sportskool cardio combat 1, 28 min. video. It was one of those I watched last month while I was sick. 

It started out with a ball sequence,  then a few Kickboxing combos and finally a stick sequence. The video was okay. I give it a 3 of 5 star rating.

I felt like quitting a few times because there was a high volume of lunges and leg rotations so my knee was a concern. I would get frustrated and a bit discouraged but I kept going.

In the end, I did not sweat as much as I did with  yesterdays workouts . I know it was probably because I did not push hard during certain parts of the sequence due to knee concerns. 

I will definitely try this again once I feel confident about my abilities just to compare fitness level. 

For now I will continue with my other planned activities to continue with knee rehab.

Here's to trying new things and pushing forward.